Why hello there(Trinity)

[Sasha]

It was coming up to morning, I lay upon my bed staring at the ceiling. I hadn't been able to sleep, I had exams later and it bothered me. I hated it, I had an advance class and of course I was pushed into taking it. Simply because I was good at it. "Fuck." I yawn, unable to shut my mind down so instead, I sat up, pulled a small vial from under my pillow and opened up the cork before putting it up to my nose and sniffing. It took a moment for it to hit and when it did, I lay back and grinned, the vial lay in my open hand. I vaguely heard the phone and shook my head, clearing my eyes. The answer phone got it, and it was Alice, who seemed a little frazzled. "Sasha, Alice here. When I see you, I have to tell you something." A click and I sat up again, walking over and staring at the phone. "Al, if you got together with her, I'll kill you." Here was the deal. Alice had been cheated and treated like shit with her girlfriend Anya. They broke up and Anya was trying to get back with Alice, who I hoped had more sense that that.

I glanced at the time before grabbing my jacket. I would have to see my mother later, I didn't know how I felt about that. We got along, but at times, it felt like we were drifting apart. Maybe it was the drugs affecting my brain more than I thought. With a soft sigh escaping my lips, I pull my jacket on and leave the dorm room, quietly heading outside into the morning sun. A chain was looped on my belt on my jeans which clanked with each step and I hooked my cell onto it in case Alice tried ringing again. Since my phone didn't start beeping, I assumed everything was okay. Or was it? Doubt entered my mind and I changed direction, heading to Alice's dorm. I stopped again, wondering what I was doing. Alice should be fine, I had an exam to prepare for! I didn't want any lectures or anything. As thoughts swirled in my head I felt arms slip around my waist. "Your up early." A voice roused me from my own head. "Jess, how are you?" My voice is weak, not wanting to pursue a relationship with her, even though thats what she wanted.

"Good." I could see her grin as I turned around before her lips met mine. A soft, slow kiss but I broke away. "Look, I've got an exam." I say, running my fingers through my short black hair. "No, you've got something else." She could see my eyes! Hastily, I grabbed my sunglasses and placed them on as she stalks away. Fuck, not what I needed. But I do have an exam! If I fail, life is probably going to be over. What else was going to happen this morning? I shook my head, hoping nothing bad WOULD happen. I didn't need it, not today. I did however, see a faint outline, one that was familiar. My heart sank when I realized who it was. Hoping against everything that she hadn't seen or heard anything, I casually placed a hand on my hip and glanced at the sky, acting like nothing was wrong. For the woman that was in my view, even now as I look at the light sky, was my mother.

[Trinity]

((I think that the university in this case would have to be in the Matrix, since Zion wouldn't be able to build that far or that advanced without the machines getting pissed....is that ok?))

I spent my days thinking of Neo and our daughter, Sasha. She had grown into a beautiful young woman. She was the first child in years that was sired in Zion, actually right before the peace with the machines was granted. However safe Zion now was, the rest of the world still belonged to the machines, and we still functioned both here and in the Matrix. There was no way to end it, but the peace was good enough for most of us. Neo had been The One. In so many ways. I would always love him, and I would never leave him. Somehow, the machines revived me, as a gift for Neo. Had he not know Agent Smith had upgraded to a virus, and given the machines this information, Zion would have been destroyed, and I would still be dead. Not only was my body healed, but the life that was inside me remained unharmed. I hadn't known then I was pregnant.

Sasha was the light of my life, as well as Neo's. Even Morpheus took to her, often treating her as a niece, which in a way, she was. I had to let go, let her grow up, which was difficult. We taught her what we could in Zion, but she had access to more educational systems inside the Matrix. She was always watched carefully, so that her signal remained clear at all times. I would not lose any more people I loved to the Matrix. However, Zion was still too poor to manufacture a University anywhere near the likes of what can be found inside the Matrix. Sasha's implants were not like Neo's, mine, or any one else left in Zion. She only had one, a direct link into her cerebelum, a node on the back of her neck. It was the only way we could download her into the Matrix stream. She obtained the majority of her education through downloads, but when the time came, her decision was to enter the Matrix and learn the way we used to, before we found freedom. Neo, having gone through it himself, agreed. I was reluctant, as I'd been free from the Matrix for longer than he had, but agreed to let her go. She was a woman now, no longer a child in my lap.

But as any mother would, I kept a close eye on her. I even went so far as to drop into the Matrix myself from time to time to check on her. We'd go shopping, or for lunch, typical mother daughter jaunts within a false system. As long as I wasn't interfering in the Matrix, no Agents bothered me. And none seemed to care much about Sasha, never glancing at her twice. Though they must have memory of me, as they'd watch me closely. I refrained from causing any undue disruptions, for Sasha's sake. When I entered the Matrix today, it was to wish her luck on her exams. It apparently meant a lot to her to develop her own intelligence, and I could not deny her that.

Used to my old habits, I wore an outfit complete of black vinyl. A tank top, leggings, combat style boots, and sunglasses. We only saw the sun in the Matrix, the machines had ruined the sky in the real world. "Sasha." I smiled as I reached her, hugging her briefly. "Good luck with the exam today." I looked her over, something wasn't quite right. Doubtful she'd talk to me about it, I couldn't let it alone. I removed her sunglasses and mine simultaneously. Her eyes were bloodshot, she'd been using. I could no longer smile. I grabbed her wrist and pulled her along with me away from others in the area. "You're using. Why?" Drugs inside the Matrix could affect you adversely, just like if you die in the Matrix, you die in the real world. "Are you trying to kill yourself?" I spat, not able to hold back my worry and disappointment.

[Sasha]

I stiffen slightly as I feel her hug me, not wanting to make things look as if they were wrong, or anything was up, I return the hug, wrapping my own arms around my mother and hugging her for a few moments before letting go. "Thanks." I smile softly, before the smile faded as my sunglasses were taken off and she could see my eyes. My bloodshot eyes. Not good, and I knew I wasn't able to talk my way out of this, and in fact, since she knew, it was a little more easy to deal with. With a stumble, I am pulled along, fingers gripped around my wrist as I was pulled away from any people. And then, I couldn't help my words that poured from my mouth as I glare. "Why? You want to know why?" I sneer. "Perhaps I am trying to kill myself, it wouldn't matter." I rub my eyes, trying to clear them and trying to make myself feel better. I've put my foot into my mouth, and there was no escaping this now. I was in trouble, I knew that much. Just how much trouble I would be in, it would be up to what I said in the next few minutes before my mother had the chance to speak. "It wouldn't matter." I repeat, pulling my wrist free of her grasp and sitting cross legged on the ground, my back rested against a tree.

There were a few things that I had to say but I couldn't. Instead, I half close my eyes, thinking of Alice, and Jess, and everyone else. From my friends, to my one night stands. I wasn't able to pin point what took me down this path. As I was thinking, a soft melody started playing before I realized it was my cell ringing. The melody was the one I had for Alice, which meant she was calling. Well duh. But the point was, was she okay? Eyes snapped open as I reach down, and pull my phone out before hitting answer. "Al? Whats wrong?" I ask, worry evident in my voice. Looking up at Trinity, I hoped I had an apologetic look as Alice answers. "It's Anya. She just won't stop and-" I cut her off in an instant. "Al, remember what I said? I would kill you if you went back with her, just be strong. And scratch the kill you part. I'll kill her. She hurt you Al, she treats you like shit. I'll come over later. My mom is here." I felt like I had to add that part.

Hanging up, I put my phone back and look back at my mother. "I've fucked up mom." My fingers run through my short, black hair. "I don't know what I'm doing anymore." I shake my head, feeling lost. It was the first time I had admitted to it, and I couldn't face looking at anyone while the silence hung between us. I looked toward the ground, a soft sigh came from my lips as I tried to figure out why this all happened. There was never any intention to hurt my mother, or to be a disappointment, and while I tried to avoid that, I had ended up walking straight into it. I felt like an idiot and a fool. "I'm sorry ya know. I just, god I don't know." Frustration built within as I tried thinking, and waiting for my mother to reply.